DRAMA- a state, situation, or series of events involving interesting or intense conflict of forces.

Some people thrive from Drama not me.   I hate drama.  It can consume you until it kills you.  It chokes you slowly taking your life away.  I avoid drama like a plaque. It makes me feel useless, hopeless and steals my joy.  I am stressed out and unhappy.  I try to runaway from it but it pursues me.  It is my cross to bear?  I don't know.  Sometimes, it feels like it is.  

I will continue to avoid all drama filled people because if I continue this way I will get sick.  Drama produces stress and anger in me so therefore I eat and continue to gain weight. This is not good for me.

I have to learn how to deal with the feelings that drama create in me.  "To let it go." It does not matter at the end of the day.  I have to learn how to put in perspective, be optimistic, act how I want to feel and know that I can only control myself.  Not to get suck up in the drama but walk away from it - LETTING IT GO!!!

WORDS OF WISDOM: “Don’t waste time on what’s not important. Don’t get sucked into the drama. Get on with it: don’t dwell on the past. Be a big person; be generous of spirit; be the person you’d admire.” Allegra Huston

DAYLIGHT SAVING TIMES

We are constantly going forward and backwards.  This past week was horrendous forget about IF.  I fell off the wagon big time.  I work in the healthcare industry and this past week was all too time consuming.  I was working over and did not have time to plan what to eat or when. I felt like a garbage disposal.

It does not help when I am stress and anxious I overeat more.  Okay tomorrow is other day and I will start over.  I will not give up.  

WORDS OF WISDOM: " Never feel guilty for starting again".  Rupi Kaur

 

FEAR

The FEAR of FAILURE is ever present. Meaning of Fear " an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or threat.

FEAR can stop you in your tracks.  What I am Afraid of? What stops me from getting on with this intermittent fasting? I know it works.  I do okay during the week Monday thru Friday and then I fail on the weekends. It's like I become paralyzed which is a form of fear. The standing still and not caring about what I eat.  It takes over.

I watch 600lbs life and I get fearful that I am going to end up like that.  I don't eat endless amount of food.  I could never eat a whole pizza by myself or eat more than one burger.  

I know I have persist with intermittent fasting maybe just maybe I will be able to accomplish it.  I have to let go of this fear and put my best foot forward.

WORDS OF WISDOM: "If you want to conquer fear, don't sit and think about it . Go out and get busy." Dale Carnegie